it's so crazy...

I mean "it's so crazy" to be so attached to these goals of mine - to extend my freedom and to deepen, to enrich, to develop my imagination...

"it's so crazy" to create, even if you can have this impression that the whole universe wants to prevent it, to stop it, like it would be some unnecessary waste of energy (third law of thermodynamics?) or disease of some sort (obsessive compulsive disorder?)...

So I'm seriously into creating more and more complex representations in my mind and into documentation of these states of mind...

I'm hunting for these extremely rare, complex and not accidental constructs... These brain events are extremely difficult to attain, to sustain and it's challenging to capture them adequately... Especially when circumstances are adverse...

I'm strongly convinced that everyone can benefit from this kind of private investigations, from these anarchistic research programs, by incorporating these representations - what is the final product of our interaction, of this exchange...

So my everyday job is not a magic, it's something which we're all doing all the time by trying to communicate. Maybe this process is even more creative, generative and inspiring when there are this inevitable noise and imprecision's which are deforming our messages...

There is no rules to which we have to stick in this play. That's why there is so much fun with that...

It's so crazy...

I could write a lot more about the nature of these representations and the art in general, about some hidden symbolics and synesthetic stories which my brain is telling me about these drawn and painted forms, but it would be definitely too long like for a standard statement and there are better places to do that (lukeratz.com)...

Anyway... Most of what I'm doing it's rather something to watch...

20.06.2020